I try to capitalize on the random urges i get to write notes about God. I’m not the only one who’s been at this stage in life. In a word: different. For the past few years at this time (September) I and many other students are being “spoon fed” the presence of God. Suddenly I feel such a hunger, like what’s going on? I’m not being “fed” anymore… I’m not going to chapel for worship and to hear sermons 4 times a week anymore… now what?
In my pursuit of answers, it didn’t take much for God to amaze me. I enjoy Him for that.
I read the Psalms (almost) every day. And today was Psalm 77… here are some of what the Psalmist says:
5 I think of the good old days,
long since ended,
6 when my nights were filled with joyful songs.
I search my soul and ponder the difference now.
7 Has the Lord rejected me forever?
Is it wrong that i feel that way sometimes? Not that i feel so discouraged or rejected… but just different. Hungry, so to speak…but just a few verses down…
11 But then I recall all you have done, O Lord;
I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago.
12 They are constantly in my thoughts.
I cannot stop thinking about your mighty works.
In those words I sink. The psalmist goes on to describe the beauty of God. He’s really just enjoying God, regardless of how he feels.
He ends by saying:
20 You led your people along that road like a flock of sheep…
So the answer is No, its not wrong to feel that way. In fact, its when were stripped of everything that we tend do depend on God.
So, to be brief. Lets pick up our proverbial spoon and eat; lets remember the greatness of God and enjoy it, rather than focusing on the “good ol days” and lets never forget that He leads His people along that road like a flock of sheep.